Because that’s what everyone says to me “be strong” those two words I’ve been listening to all my life and as I get older I hear it more and more. “You have to be strong and look out for yourself” and I never listen. I know the theory but I never approve of the practice. I love you, I know that and perhaps I love you more than I should, more than me. And this is wrong. I know. You have taught me, you were my teacher to make me understand that you cannot love someone other than yourself because sooner or later it hurts. We love so much and we give so much love that later when the other person leaves you no longer leave anything for you. Hopefully you will find someone who will make all this I understand understand, that someday you will be in my place and stop to think about me and understand first hand what it feels and how it feels. Hopefully you find yourself and be happy without me. I will try to be without you even if it hurts, even if I don’t want to. But sometimes in life we do not have the things we want and we have to accept it because we have no choice but to move on without looking back. Sometimes in life we have to have the balls to decide and accept that things go, that they never come back, never. Like you or me, that I will never fall into you again, that I will never feel this love for anyone again because this love was only for you. That a better, healthier love will come.